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October 28th, 2008 by iyahthought

7:13 PM

I’ve just composed three (3) poems

I’ve composed them knowing an answer could be found

just right after the last one

But they only gave me headache…

& endless questions

& countless what if’s

& a more doubtful mind

13 minutes… and it’s dinner time

pain in my stomach will soon be gone

But my head will suffer more

need to sleep…

Hoping dreams could wipe them out

those worries & pains

theirs & his…

~closing~

LUKANG INGLISERA (LUNATIC COÑOTIC)

September 21st, 2008 by iyahthought

“Could you offer me something? Anything from your heart? Do you have coffee?” – These are the words that I heard that I thought I was dreaming and I’m not in my homeland.

But I’m not really dreaming nor I’m somewhere in America!

It’s so unusual in our barrio where I grew up to hear people speaking not in our native tongue. I was just at home. I checked the time on my phone and it’s only 5:30 AM. A bit earlier than I used to waking up every morning.

Grrrr… I was really awakened from a nice sleep, a nice dream. *=/ I opened my eyes and clear all my thoughts so I could clearly hear the conversation.

It was my mother who was talking to somebody – the coñotic one. She was busy doing her morning chores of opening our lil store. She already opened the window then putting up the breads/biscuits on its shelves will be the next thing to do but she didn’t get a chance to do it. She didn’t dare do it.

The coñotic woman kept on talking & asking too many questions as if she was interviewing my mother. No definite topic was at hand. Just “anything goes” out of her head! My mother answered all the questions thrown at her then this woman asked for a cigar. My mother refused to give one even when she asked for a coffee and bread to eat.

My mother is not that kind of person as u would think she is coz of her refusal. She is not “madamot”.

That “anything goes” questions give me inkling that my mother is having an irritable conversation with a lunatic woman. An indeed lunatic coñotic woman. I will let you call her in the name “Luna”

Not giving anything to her made Luna got mad. As mad as hell. She is shouting as if cursing the whole place, our barrio. Luna even told my mother that she need not address my mother respectfully as what she did in the first place when the conversation started. She said that my mother is not a good person. How dare her talked to my mother like that!

But anyways, like what they all say “ Ang pumatol sa walang bait, e ganun na din”– “if you let yourself be affected and argue with a mad/insane person, consider yourself as one”J

My mother really got irritated when Luna started to shout. My mother could not leave our store open knowing that Luna has all the capability of doing something bad. My mother asked Luna to leave our store and go somewhere else but she kept on yelling.

It would either be just there waiting for Luna to leave and not be able to do her chores or close our store. And my mother did the latter. At last, Luna parted our store with her voice barely could be heard from afar. I should say from anear. (is there a word like that? Har har har!) She just transferred to the next store which is just a few feet away from ours, my tita’s store. What the! I asked my mother if she warned them. And thank GOD she already did. J So they just ignored Luna.

There’s this man came. Luna asked him for a bread to eat in a disgraceful manner. He gave Luna a piece of bread. And guess what? Instead of being thankful, Luna reacted violently for just receiving a single bread!

They all just ignored her. Some of the people at the waiting shed near my tita’s store just laughed at what they’ve heard. Luna went there and they interviewed her. They’ve asked where she lives, her name, etc. But instead of answering these questions, she asked for a cigar.

“Kapag nabenta ko ung bahay ko, babalikan ko kayo! Tatandaan ko mga pagmumukha nyo! Malilintikan kayo!”–“If I have my house sold, I’ll come back here. I’ll remember all your faces and you will regret the way you treated me here!”– that was what she said when the guy whom she asked for a cigar didn’t give her one.

Then two of our Barrio’s official came. They asked Luna to come with them so they could bring her to the town proper. “Kayong mga palamunin ng gobyerno namin! Mga wala kayong kwenta!” – “All of you are useless! You who just depend on our government!”

“Dalhin nyo ako sa asawa ko pero kapag di nyo nakita, sa nanay ko na lang ninyo ako dalhin! Siguraduhin nyo lang na dun ang punta naten. Huwag sa mental hospital”– “Bring me to my husband but if you will not find him, just bring me to my mother. Just make sure that’s the place we’re heading and not the mental hospital!” These are the last statements that I’ve heard from Luna after our Barrio’s Official have her rode on a tricycle.

My mind laughed silently at that scene that I just saw.

It’s funny to have encountered people like Luna. Funny because of the words that you could hear them say. Those surprising words that sometimes could lead us to what they have been through and why they became like that.

But it’s scary too. More scary than funny for you really don’t know if they are just spying on our barrio, on us and our belongings. Looking for something valuable, really valuable that they could steal. They could just pretend that they are insane so people will not mistaken them as “akyat-bahay” gang. They already know which house will give them fortune if they will not be caught.

It’s funny to watch and hear them talk. Just be cautious of their actions and their eyes. BUT don’t ever make eye contact. You could be hypnotized.

You’ve been warned.

Beware.

Be careful.

WUT F ANIMALS/INSECTS CUD TOK?

September 21st, 2008 by iyahthought

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOISE! NOISE! NOISE! definitely more than that…

imagine urself being haunted by different sounds of animals/insects while making ur blog for the day…

chirping, barking, bzzzzzing, etc. will mean something…

and ull never be in full concentration and focus…

EXEMPLI GRACIA

1. those crawling ants shouting ” out of the way u giant freak!” the nerve! i mean “the lil nerve!” what a brave lil ants are those! =) they’ll surely bite u if u wont do what u wer asked to do! will they have their own road like that of the vehicles that we have? for sure, yeah. Can u imagine urself walking as if ur playing “piko” and “step no, step yes” just to avoid of killing them with your feet/slippers/shoes/etc.

2. those kittens/cats who will keep on asking for their food to be offered ahead of time “i’m hungry.. can i have my food?” while making circles around your legs and wiping thier hairy head on it… what a sweet creature… =) but bloody hell if you stepped on their feet and tail… be ready for an injection a day ahead

3. those barking dogs ”this is our territory!” you’ll be a dead meat if u tresspassed and they’ll be after you if you think of running for your life.

4. those chirping birds “ashfwigidvnasknvqei” you have no idea if they are really singing or just talkin french.. wishing that they are not alienated.

5. those buzzzing bees and mosquitoes “wake up! wake up! u sleepy head!” all armed to inject and have your blood samples be tasted.

6. those rats that hide on every hole (that they do build) with tiny pieces of paper and wood in your house. “are they already sleeping? can’t wait for a bite…” some myt say “is this his/her belongings? bingo!” and u’ll be surprised to see a hole on one of your favorite clothes or on your diary if they are so lucky to find what’s yours… i mean really yours. what an intelligent brain they have…  an intelligent nose? well that would be the case if you talk behind their backs and stub them. a lil usage of nicknames will help you not to be on that kind of unfortunate day. =)

7. those lizards on your ceiling, bats on your roof, super noizzzy mosquitoes, grashoppers, flies and their nephews and nieces and cousins… etc. your world will be a total mess…

will it really be?

on the other side of it, talking animals and insects like that is kinda exciting… (hahaha!) and it could bring forth harmony (WORLD PEACE, I THANK YOU!)

we could understand them (not unless they wud speak our native tongue) and know their feelings as well. Welcome aboard HARMONY!

“Heal the world, make it a better place. for you and for me and for the animals and for the insects and the entire human race… lalalalala” what a nice rendition in rhyme(?) har har har!

But would you rather prefer animals and insects be like us than them just buzzing, chirping, barking, and stealthily crawling? would you prefer harmony or a more complicated mother earth? would you prefer be sent to mars or venus?

hahaha

IS THIS AN EFFECT OF A PEACEFUL ENVIRONMENT OF AN ALONE CREATURE?

bakit too (2)?

August 5th, 2008 by iyahthought

“one love” by Acel Bisa is playing… I thought I was dreaming. Alarm ko na pla un…

I need to wake up na kc ang minsang pagpikit muli ng aking mga mata, malamang lunch time na ako magigising muli. Ganun ako tuwing umaga. Pahirapan ihiwalay sa kutson ang aking likuran. Pahirapan sa pagmulat ng aking mga mata. Kahit ata magpacontest ng unahan, talo sila pareho. KO! Hindi ko alam kung anu problema ng sistema ko. Kumpleto naman ang bilang ng oras ng pagtulog ko, base sa kung ganu na ako katagal dito kay Mother Earth. I’ll sleep at around 11. After PDA. Yeah ryt! Im a fanatic. Isang masugid na manunuod ng programang yaon. Madami naman kc ako natututunan. Sa singing techniques. Sa buhay buhay nila. Sa diskarte nila. Sa bangayan nilang alang kwenta. Sa kadramahan. Back-fighting chuvanez! Kasayahan. Biruan. Madami. ENVY. Hay! Sow Meni of dim!

Mumog time. Then mgCR. Punta na ako ng kwarto ko sa matandang bahay. (The author is not sleeping on her room for about a couple of days and soon become a couple of months). I’ll get my things. Undies, Robe,

Bath

towel, lil basket where I put my ligo-stuff. Then time check.

Punta naman ako sa aming munting kusina. Hmmnn. I seldom eat rice every morning. Kung kakaen man ako, mga ilang subo laang, solve na. Magtimpla nalng ako ng kape then lagyan ko ng gatas. Paminsan-minsan lang un kc di ako mahilig sa kape. Di kami bati ni caffeine. Bestfriend ko? Si mister

Milo

. Teka lalaki ba cia? Panu kc “o” as in Mil”o”. E bakit ung george at alex? Name ng gurlalush un minsan daba? Whatever! Basta!

Balik ulet ako sa lumang bahay. (ang matandang bahay at lumang bahay po e isang katauhan lamang kaya wag po kau malilito mga iho at iha). Niga-tutbrush then wash mah fes. Pasok sa CR. At un na! Then pasok sa kabilang banyo para maligo. Ilang minuto ba nagugugol ko paliligo? Hmmnn… minsan kc inaabot ako ng katok ng susunod sa aking maligo. Ahehehhe.

Hmmnn so fresh and clean! I’ll clean my nose ang ears. Then mah fez ulet. Put on lahat ng mga kelangang ilagay sa aking katawan at mukha. For my fes: Moisturizer, powder, blush-on and eye shadow (pag trip lang), eye liner, lip liner, lipstick and  lip shiner. For mah badi: deo-roll on, whitening lotion for dark spots on my skin, semi-whitening lotion for mejo may kaputian ng bahagi. (ahehhehe) Then I’ll put on my pants. Then my shirt/blouse. Next, my hair.

Ala

na time patuyuin, kaya kahit basa pa, nakapony na kagad. Kaya pagdating ng hapon, HEADACHE. Then sho-es.

I’ll go downstairs to check on myself sa harap sa malaking salamin. PERFECT! LOLz! Punta na kay mudra tsaka hihingi ng baon kapag ala na tlga ako wawartz. Ahehhehe. Make mano to her sabay sabing: “’Nay alis napo ako.”

Sakay ng tryke. Bayad ng 11 pesos.

Baba sa kabayanan para sumakay muli sa jip. Kalimitan pa nito kapag di ka magaling pumili ng sasakyan, aabutin ka ng “anung petsa na?” karumi! Bago ka pa sumakay sasabihin sau ng barker: “aalis na po tau pagkasakay nyo” LIAR! Minsan pa nga nakasakay ako ng jip na mejo malapit na mapuno. Un nmn pla eh mga barker din ang sakay para lang maengganyo ka sumakay at maisip mo na aalis na cguro to after a couple or minutes. KABWISIT!    Manloko pa daw ba ng pasahero.

Sa biahe.

Para

di ako mainip, nagdadala ako minsan ng buk para basahin. Un na lang minsan kc ang time ko para matapos ko na ung matagal ko na binabasang buk eh. Months yata bago ako makatapos ng isang buk. (Right now, THE WITCHING HOUR by ANNE RICE is the buk that the author is trying to finish reading. It’s book I of the Mayfair Chronicles.)

Baba naman ako ng bayan ulet. Lugal kung saan ako nagtatrabajo. Bigla ako mapapaisip. Teka nakuha ko ba ung sukli ko? Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Ala

nga pla ako sukli kc sakto ung binayad ko, 23.50. Kaya ako napasigaw kc naalala ko nung college student pa ako, nakalimutan ko ung sukli ko sa isang daan piso. My graciousness! Minsan kc may mga driver na swapang! Pagkabayad mo di ka kagad susuklian kahit pa kita mo sa pagitan ng knyang mga daliri na meron cia bills. Ang siste nga namn makakalimut k na humingi kung tlgang c kalimut ka. Tsk tsk tsk! Wawa nmn… meron nmng driver na nagbibingi-bingihan na kunwari ala cia narinig sa halos makailang-ulit mo ng paghingi ng sukli mo. Deadma ba. Susmayerz!

Asan na ba c akitch? Hmmnn bayan na nga pla. Baba ako sa malapit sa cimbahan sa bayan. Sakay naman ng tryke punta na upis. Dati kc nung my time pa ako. Dumadaan pa ko sa loob ng cimbahan. Magtitirik ng kandila duun tas magpapasalamat sa natupad na hiling sa birhen ng dolorosa. Tas kung may konting prob na nde masolusyunan at litung-lito na, hihiling ulet sa kanya. Close na nga kami eh. J I tell her about my prob as if im really talking to her. Sarap ng feeling. Pero sa ngaun, lagi akong gahul sa oras, di ko na cia nadadalaw dun. Madami na ako utang sa knya. *sigh*

Minsan namn iba dinadaanan ko. Dun lang sa may labas ng cimbahan. Ung may karatulang CR Women. Aheheh. Kc wiwing wiwi na ako. Sobrang dami ng tao sa labas nakapila. Tsk tsk. Panu ba to? Buti nlng iba pla pinipilahan nila. NFA rice pla. Ahehhee.

Time check. Kaya ba ng 10 mins ni mamang driver? Hmmnn… may bigla akong naalala. Napahawak nmn ako sa bulsa ng pants ko.

Ala

nga pla dun ung selefoni ko. Nasa bag ko na. Dati kc laging nsa bulsa ko phone ko. Pero after ako mawalan ng phone for 2 times, ndala na tlga ako. Nahulog kc sa bulsa ko. Palibhasa madulas kc. Tsk tsk tsk. Buti may phone lock pareho ung phone. Kaso napaisip ako. May software na nga pla ginagamit to unlock it. Sarap batukan ng sarili ko! ARAY!

Manong bayad  po. Sabay abot ng isang bente pesos at isang sampung piso. Bale trenta pamasahe. “pakipasok po sa loob” time check ulet. Haaay. 8:30:55. Wagi! Di pa ako late!

Finger scanner’s light turns red! Putcha namn oh! Di pa mabasa ng scanner ung linya sa daliri ko. Dapat daw kc mejo basa daliri mo. E anu gagawin ko lalawayan ko? Kadiri! Naisip ko tuloy, meron kya gumagawa nun dito sa aming opisina? Ehw!

Ala

akong kamalay malay dun…. Buti nalng basa pa buhok ko. Hinawakan ko hair ko tas un! Presto! “Passed” the scanner said. Time check. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! 8:31:00. LATE NA AKOH!

Ang inyo pong natunghayan e ang aking aktibidades mula paggising ko sa umaga hanggang sa makalapatang daliri ko ang finger scanner ditto sa aming opisina. Pero bakit nga ba ganun title ko ditto? Panu po kc, ung 2 e rating ko sa punctuality ko for almost 6 consecutive semesters. Huhuhuhuhuhu! BAKIT NGA BA TOO (2)?

WORZT OF D WORZT OF LYF

August 5th, 2008 by iyahthought

Pasintabi po sa mangilan-ngilan na readers na trip kumaen while reading somebody’s blogs… (some themes and languages of this blog may not be suitable for VERY YOUNG AND GOOD LOOKING-maseselang mambabasa)

1. LVM habang sakay ka ng jeep at malau-lau pa bababaan mo… lahat na yata ng santo napagdasalan mo na harinawa eh mapigil ang gustong lumabas na kasamaan from your ass! Nakakapanlamig at nakakapanindig balahibong pakiramdam. Pati technique na narinig mo ng minsang may nag-demo tungkol sa connections of our body parts e ginawa mo na pero wa-epek pa din. Nakarating ka na ng bahay nyo at u really nid to deposit all that’s stores in u, namimilipit ka na sa sakit ng abs (naks! Meron k b nun?) pero ngkakarambolan lang  sila sa loob at tila nag-uunahan sa paglabas. Masuka-suka  ka na at lahat na yata ng kinain mo that day e gusto na kagad lumabas kahit nde pa nakakarating sa tiyan para magiling.
2. Field trip nyo at malau pa ung venue pero wiwing wiwi ka na. Natiis mo na nde mapaihi sa salwal hanggang makarating k sa paroroonan. Kala mo pde na mghanap muna ng CR. Ginawa ng prof nyo e pinagmadali kau sa pgpila para sa exhibit… putcha! Di man lang nagtanung kung may kelangan na mgCR!
3. Sakay ka ng bus (ordinary.. kc mahal sa Air-conditioned bus), may nakatabi kang ale na kasama dyunanaks nia. Biglang sumuka at nasukahan pa damit mo. What a scene! What a smell! Nadudu-al k n din! At babaligtad tlga sikmura mo!
4. Sakay ka ng LRT/MRT. Punong-puno. Xmpre, standing k na at ala man lang ngmagndang loob na ADAN para paupuin ka. Nakatabi mo may ANGHIT! Putcha! Nakakahilong amoy! Mas masahol pa sa pinaghalo-halong panis na pagkain! Nangitim ka na sa pagpigil ng paghinga mo. Di nman pde na exhale kalng. Ang kaso pa nito di ka nabiyayaan ng height ng magsabog ng katangkaran si Lord. Sapol sa ilong mo ang kasula-sulasuk na amoi! Ehwness!
5. Scene: Sa elevator or air-conditioned room. Ang biglaang pagsasabog ng lagim ng mga taong kalalafang lang ng kamote, sampalok at malapit na mapanis na pagkain na sa pag-aarimuhunan e kinain pa din. Kakasukang amoy! Patawarin!
6. Reporting period. Maaga kang pumasok kasi may abiso na mawawalan ng daloy ng current sa upis nyo. Nasa kalagitnaan ka plang ng biglang nagdilim ang paligid mo. Tut! Tut! Tut!  Type ka pa rin kc nde pa tapos. Until that sound fades. UPS. Sarap ibato! Alang kwenta. Kelangan pa din ng support ng kuryente para gumana, for just a couple of seconds. Tsk Tsk Tsk!
7. Sabihan kang ala kang alam thru a phone conversation with  a guy u haven’t seen in person. Putcha! Sarap magmura! E kung sia nga nde nia alam tungkol sa mga tsetse buretse ng buhay nia, ako pa ba makaalam nun?! Hell!
8. Iparamdam sau na ala kang kwenta ng mga taong nakapaligid sa iyo. Na you cud make someone’s life miserable. And the worst of it all, accusing you that you want somebody’s life end at that very moment. Dinaig mo pa ung pakiramdam ng mga suspect sa kasong murder.
9. Iparamdam sau na dinadaya mo sila at di mo ginagawa ang trabaho ng maayos. Isisi sa iyo ang kasalanan ng ibang tao.
10. Pagbintangan ka na sinungaling ka! Tas ngingisi-ngisi pa!
11. Sabihan ka ng “grow up!”. Saksak mo sa baga mo ang grow up mo!
12. Matapos mong maglinis ng kwarto mo tas ang kasama mo e alang pakialam na nagkakalat ng basura ng pinagkainan nia. Kahit pa may nakalaan ng plastic para sa garbage, makukat-mukat mo e may naghilera ng pulang langgam sa sahig papunta sa higaan mo. Kaya tuloy paggising mo isang umagang may pasok ka e makapal pakiramdam mo sa isang mata mo. Namaga na sa kagat ng langgam. Kahit ala  kang kabalak balak lumiban, e di ka nakapasok kc nagmukha k ng half-half. (half Chinese/half pinay). At kinabukasan, dahil sawa na sa mata mo, likod mo nmn ang tinira at kinagat. Kaitim pa mandin ng peklat!
13. Mgcompose ka ng txt tas nakita mo na
    mali
    ung recipient. Kahit pindutin mo makailang beses ang cancel, alang kwenta kc ang sabi sau ng phone mo, “message sent”. Naglagay pa ng cancel! Bistado ka tuloy sa imong sikreto! Patay tau jan!
14. Masnatch bag mo while riding on a passenger jeep at ala kang nagawa at nasabi man lang kungdi, “ang bag ko.” Mejo pabulong pa un ha. Tumigil nga ang jeep pero, ala lang…
15. Mahulog ang Phone mo from 

    ur 

    pocket na nde mo namalayan. Twice na to nangyari at ala kang kadala-dala hanggang ngaun.
16. Punta ka na sa kwarto to sleep tas biglang may kung anung lilipad lipad sa loob ng kwarto mo. BAT! Waaaaaaaaaaaaah! Tas ala ka pang kabit na kulambo. At ala kang nagawa kungdi magtalukbong ng kumot na maigsi para lang nde ka madapuan ng kabag. Kahit pawisan ka na e di k p rin tumatayo kc feeling mo eh, pagsilip mo p lang e yan n nmn cia at lilipad punta sau. Makikiramdam ka. Hanggang sa madaling araw nap la at mulat k p rin. Kinabukasan, welcome “eye bags”.
17. Mega kwento ka sa isang kaibigan. As in mala telenovelang istorya ang iyong naitype. Super excited ka pa na mabasa kinabukasan ang reply nia. Tas pg-open mo ng reply nia… “crap”. What the %^%&&^$#$@#%%I&!
18. Finding out that the person u have learned to love is going to be a father. At di ikaw ang ina kungdi sa ibang gurlalush! Crying to death ang lola mo sa harap ng PC na nde k nmn macomfort-comfort kahit gatiting. Kahit gusto mo umatungal, e ala kang magawa kungdi hayaang dumaloy sa iyong pisngi ang luha… one by one… pati na sipon mo, ganun din. Then u asked urself, “WHY?”
19. Maiwan ka ng last trip. Literally and not.
20. After mo bumili ng favorite mong book on a regular price, ipagpapahili mo sa kapatid mo, tas sasabihin nalng nia… “sale yan sa Book 

    Sale

    . Di mo ba nakita? Pagkamura!” Oh Man!
21. Papatak ang ulan and 

    ur 

    wearing 

    ur 

    white pants and u do not have payong or anything to cover u up.
22. Pagpara mo e di narinig ng driver sa kalakasan ng sounds nia. Kaya yun, sulit na sulit ang binayad mo s knya kc nakalampas ka na sa bababaan mo ng pagkalayu-layo. Ang isa pa e sa LRT. Sa dami ng taong sakay, the next stop wud be 

    ur 

    destinations pero di ka makausad ng ayus. Kaya yun, nxt terminal ka na tas ala kang choice kungdi bumalik. Thru PUJ o LRT? Kahit saan bsta di ka late!
23. Makupasan ang pinakapaborito mong damit!
24. Ngatngatin ng magkapatid na Mickey at Minnie ang gamit mo pati damit! Di pa nakuntento dun, ginawa pang CR gamit mo. Nak-nang!
25. Makahanap ka sa gabundok na damit ng type mo pero alang available na size. Yeah Ryt! 

    Sale 

    nga nmn…
26. Ipahanap sau hard copy sa santambak na papers na nde sorted only to find out na nasa pinakailalim pla kailangan mo. U should have done it the other way around. Sabi ko nga! I should have known!
27. Bili ka ng bili ng ballpen para lamang mawala. Kahit pa ba mura lang un. I got it from my pocket kaya! Kabwisit. Kahit pa nga nilagyan mo na lahat ng “stolen from atsu tsutsu!” nakah! Umasa ka pang babalik un!
    NO WAY!
28. Pagbili ng CPhone tas after a day or two, malalaman mo na bumaba na kagad presyo ng hinayupak. Tas may mga free pa!
29. Mag-uwe ng diskette only to find out na sira pla ung diskette. Mega back-up ka pa nmn. DAMN!
30. Denied na CC applications for the nth time! Iyung iyu na!

Ang inyong natunghayan at nabasa ay ilang lamang sa napakaraming karanasan ng may-akda. May mangilan-ngilan po na pawing kathang-isip lamang (na kesyo kunwari naranasan nia) pero nangyayari tlga sa tunay na buhay. Salamat po ng madami sa panahong ginugol nyo. Hanggang sa susunod….

on being happy.. on heartaches

February 17th, 2008 by iyahthought

“be close w/ someone who makes you happy…”

“but be closer to that person who can not be happy without you…”

“feel the difference…”

yeah… feel the difference…

sigh…

how can i make someone happy? if i knw that the thing that makes them feel sad and lonely is the decision that i made…

but what if both of them cud not be happy w/out me?

who will i choose?

ive asked someone.. “who will u choose to be with, the person you love or the person who loves u?”

mahirap b ung tanong?

things change…. And so as my feelings… There’s no exemption….

Wut wud u do if ur in a relationship and u no longer feel the feeling that u once used to… will u still continue to be In that relationship?

HEARTACHES

is there really a way for a person to know what will happen in the future?

di nmn ganun kadali un db?

i know how painful it is… dahil di ako manhid…

nursing a broken heart… masakit… i know it is…

db.. u’ll never know u have loved until u get hurt..

m i selfish? sometimes naiicip ko that i am… thinking only of wut cud makes me happy… i didnt mean to hurt somebody else’s heart.. somebody else’s feelings… pero khit nmn anung pilit na iwasan na di mangyari un, mangyayari at mangyayari un db?…

how can i be completely happy?

knowing that everytime i smile, everytime i laugh, may mga matang lumuluha…