badtrip to goodtrip

October 17th, 2005 by iyahthought

lunes na lunes tas agang aga kakabadtrip! everytime naiisip ko wut had jz happened kanina, kumukunot noo ko! grrrrrrrrrr! kakainis tlaga! buti nlang there’s sumthin gud and nice to be remembered.

oct 16, 2005 (which is kahapon lamang…..chubah tienes) ive got a chance to see the band PNE! tnx to my sis and nasnip ahyan na nagpabili ng CD tas un, nakapanood kami without an aching feet and neck and amoy na nakaka…..ehw! (arte noh?!)  ryt after singing almost 10 songs (kakapagod un ha), w8 ng konti tas autograph signing na sa CD chubah ek ek! piktuyr piktyur! hehehehhe i didnt smell anything bad nor nice na perfume… laws yata kahit cologne mga un! but in fairness, friendly tlga cila. mas gusto ko c buwi at lalong lalo na c gab who has a tattoed arm (maliliit na letters lang un actually of his mudra’s and erpat’s and bro’s names). ang nakakatawa pa neto is nung paalis na cla, kasama kami ni sis hanggang sa sasakyan nila…. my sis asked for a shirt (kala ko libre, nde pla!) tas un, she bought one lang kc po it’s 200 pesosesoses!

actually, the very reason why i decided na magpunta kami ng sis ko is for me to look for a pair of shoes or sandals and samahan lang cia dun na kala ko is madali lang…. in the end (nothing really matters) i mean i havent got a chance to buy kahit isang piraso ng sapatos o sandalyas ba ga. hay! but im happy… really i am… nag-enjoy tlaga aketch! 

tnx sis niebe!

js check out my picx…. andun picx namin ni buwi and gab…. ung k chito, tsaka nlang. hehehhehe

shadow

September 26th, 2005 by iyahthought

how deep will i swim
in your ocean of existence
embracing your undivided attention
until i drowned myself

how long will i search
in your overflowing words of acceptance
reality seems set on fire of lies
until i shut my eyes out

how far will i travel
on your road of endless maze
pieces of broken promises scattered
until my feet get wounded

how high will i fly
on your wide open mind
leaves of doubt had fallen
until my wings of love has gone

as weak as those rotten wood of hope
restless, cant wait that long
getting old, ugly and tired
now setting you free of this sHaDoW of love

this poem

September 26th, 2005 by iyahthought

In this crumpled paper i wrote
words i myself dont understand
as i hold my pen so tight
it loosen the knot of poetry inside

but the deeper i think of a piece
thoughts seem invisible inside
my mind’s tortured in pain
my hand’s starting to bleed

but still i will waste such precious ink
on this sheet flooded with blood and tears
though its hard to catch a sharp verse
i wont stop until it says a phrase

now i want is your heart to understand
those eyes to read such nonsense
the poem i myself dont own
but this paper and pen that mourn

t3ary-3y3d

September 26th, 2005 by iyahthought

ive seen the episode of Magandang Gabi bayan last saturday…
daming pumatak na luha sa pisngi….
mas lamang ang kaliwang pisngi and i have no scientific explanation why……

exec. clemency….
 one thing and one reason why i can say that for the first time,
ive been grateful to GMA (not the kapuso)

neweis, js wnt to share what ive been bz doing while in the middle of a seminar….
(kakaantok kc)
…………..
Sept. 22, 2005 around 4:00 pm

water flows freely
in the ocean of existence
can feel the warmth of each drop
until drowned by the clearness of soul
——————-
tears wiped by a lifeless touch
of hands without courage and hope
eyes that seek for rays of light
went blind when reality lit the road
——————–
will i count the days & months & years?
will i not loosen the knot of hope?
will i cross the path once more and wait?
will i not ask for a sign to hold?

Sept. 23, 2005 around 11:00am

sometimes doubts are hard to keep
when in times blinded by fears
cant accept the reality at hand
for it darken the promise of heart
———————
love is the breath that i take
the strength of my soul
the courage of my will
———————
love creates chaos to peaceful mind

ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz………..

shiver

September 9th, 2005 by iyahthought

badtrip! lakas ulan! lakas din ng AC! nawiwiwi tuloy ako but i still have 10 minutes, sayang din.

nakakapangaligkig!

a frend txtd me last sunday askin for help… i dunno if trip lang nia un or wut

got worried, until now have no news from him.

tsk tsk! bahala k sa buhay mo!

shift of emotions

kinda bit surprising noh?!

its easy to shift emotions yet its hard to hide  ur pains

………………..

wud u be ther to love me?

…………………………..

hah! wat a question!

…………………………………..

badtrip tlagaH!

headache

August 29th, 2005 by iyahthought

sa tinagal tagal, kgbi lang ako nakaranas ng ganun katinding sakit ng ulo! pati mata ko sumasakit! sarap ihampas ng ulo! kaso sayang nmn ang laman baka matapon.  naks! seryoso, sobra sakit tlaga! ryt after kong maligo dat afternun, un sumakit na. anu lang ba kakaiba kong ginawa after? me kulang nga eh kc ala ung suklay ko! nawala ng nde ko namalayan! ginamit ko tuloy ung suklay na ewan. bsta! sama ng pakiramdam pla if nde mo nsusuklay ng ayos buhok mo noh?! basta! sakit sobra! para p nga akong me hangover ng sakit e! gusto ko manood ng TV a ruler apart pero nde ko magawa kya ngtyaga akong maupo sa silya na nde nmn kalayuan sa Telebisyon… inabot ko tuloy stiffed-neck! mataas kc ung TV! nde rin ako nakatagal kc nga masakit din sa mata kahit malayo na ako! tinde! naisip ko tuloy baka nmn nasobrahan ako sa TV?…. hmmm… matay ko mang isipin, tanungin nyo ako ng palabas kahit anu….. malamang sa mali magiging sagot ko. lalo pat teleserye, koreanovela o kahit ano pang vela yan. i seldom watch TV. pwera nlang if its CSI, tru calling, gilmore girls (minsan nga nde pa rin ako nakakapanood eh!) wawa nmn ako! huhuhuhuh neweis, back to wer we are….. dat day, i js watched "charlie and the chocolate factory" dapat nga nde sakit ng ulo inabot ko kundi sakit ng tyan! kc nmn all that ur eyes cud c inside the faCtory is pede ipasok sa bunganga at kainin! chocolates! ryt now im craving for one! makabili pla mia… 

hay! headache! lahat nlang sakit sa ulo! pag-alang pera, sakit sa ulo! pag alang laman tiyan, mahihilo ka den ryt after ung ulo mo sasakit din kasaby ng pagkulo ng tyan!, pag galit ka, sakit ulo mo, pag ala kang ginawa kungdi matulog maghapon, sakit din ulo mo, pag may nangungulit sau, sakit din sa ulo, pag ala kang fafa, sakit sa PUSO…heheheh jk!

cge, sumasakit na ulo ko at nahihilo na po ako. gutom na kc!

la lang

August 25th, 2005 by iyahthought

Madami akong iniisip sa mga oras nato….. 6:30 pm

werk……prob sa work, fwends……. prob ng fwends, special fwend…… prob ng special fwend, fud…. nu kakainin ko mia pagdating sa bahay

hmmmnn….. konti plang yan actually sa malimit na pumapasok sa kukote ko sa mga nakalipas na araw, sa mga nakalipas na oras, minuto at segundo

probs! tsk! tsk! jan ka muna! stay wer u r, dont move! balikan kita if ever ok na utak q!

matagal ko na gusto ulit magpost d2….. por supuesto! kelangan masaya wen2! m happy! shalala! basta! =) d=) 8=)

sarap ng feeling! sarap magdaydream! ehehehehe tsaka na nga lang muna details. nagbago icip ko!

ehehhehehe

happy! shalalala! it’s really nice to be happy!

personality

June 19th, 2005 by iyahthought

“It is not u underneath but wut u do that defines u” a line from d mouth of rachel in BATMAN BEGINS.

i was hurt. i didnt open it up to the person hu caused such. i js pause and think and reminisce. i asked myself  “does that really defines my personality?” “am i really like what she tot of me?” she really dont knw me that well. u cant blame me nor she cant if i am not sharing with her those stuffs that cud make me happy, things that defines my true personality. i havent cried in front of her. she’ll only gonna laugh at me and wud definitely say “Patay na Patay ka nmn”, “Naniwala ka nmn?”. hah! if only she knw what’s me underneath.

it all started while we are about to finish eating “LOMI”. she said that she cant create blog coz she dont want others to read stuffs that she’ll gonna write on it. i asked her ” have u read my diary?” then she said,”why wud i?, all that’s written on it wud be blah blah blah…i saw blah blah” “that’s ur personality!” i keep quiet afterwards. that’s not me for pete’s sake! nde ako ganun kababaw! sorry to those people who wrote that way. it’s ur minds desire to do so.

neweis, i cant deny the fact that most of what’s written on it are things that had made me smile, laugh, cry…..thoughts to remember, memories to cherish and to share. things that are nonsense to other perhaps. things that i can look and read back at jz in case that i failed to remember them. it scares me if someday i wont be remembering all that had happend to me. wag klang sana malimutan kung san ko tinago ung aking diary.

hay! PERSONALITY. a simple word with different meanings

pochie

June 6th, 2005 by iyahthought

i jz received my march issue of reader’s digest. E ANONG PETSA NAH?! HA?! neweis, i’ve read an article about dogs that says they also need care and attention, not only fud and watah. bigla ko tuloy naisip ung dog ko na c POCHIE. ATE gave her to me lst year. cnt remember the exct month and day. basta last year lng un. she’s so cute and u wud tot na nakipag pot-sessionez lagi kc nmn laging hyper! lalo na kapag nakalaya cia sa lubid na nananakal ng sobra. (joke) nde nmn mashado tight. when she was small, i said thati will buy dog fud for her tas hanggang sa lumaki na cia, ni label ng kung anong dog fud nde ko nadala sa aming kabahayan. i always forgot about it. sowe!

dumating ung time na naging matamlay c pochie. ayaw kumain ng kahit ano. i tot she jz want water but yaw ding tumoma. i dunno what to do. ala akong kakilalang vet that time. (ewan ko ba nmn na kung kelan ala ung aso ko, saka lang ako nakameet ng vetmed! na ewan ko kung asang lupalop n ng mundo cia naruun!) tas minsan, inginungudngud nia ung nguso nia sa lupa. tas eto na ang sumunod na pangyayaring nakapagpabago sa aking masalimuot na buhay…. (joke) waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuh! i woke up one morning and i heard mudra talkin’ to my bro….. “dalhin mo nlang sa silangan (east) dun mo nlng ibaon.” what a very bad news that early! i asked mudra “alin”…. but i already have a clue na c POCHIE ung tinutukoy. waaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bigla tuloy nagflashback sakin ung time na maliit pa c pochie. bigla cia namayat kc nakakain ng tinik ng hinayupak na isdang un! minsang mapadaan ako sa church, ipinagtirik ko tlaga cia ng candle para gumaling cia. and after a few days, m so damn happy kc naging addict na ulit… hyper to the max na ulit c pochie.

mabalik tau sa article, on what it says. CARE AND ATTENTION. who’s to blame for my dog’s death? no one ever spank her or kick her (baka bumaho). cguro nga, kulang sa atencion kc nmn paminsan minsan ko lang cia malambing….. kapag bagong paligo lang. e twice a month lang yata naliliguan un eh. unlike before na malimit. ng lumaki na cia (at nagka-isip heeheeh) nde na cia nawiwiling lumigo. she’ll gonna bite u if u pour water on her head.

hay! i just hope may magmagandang loob na magbigay ng dog sakin. il accept it wholeheartedly and open arms wide. heehehheeh

POTCHIE

“OH how i miss her!”

not getting any younger

June 6th, 2005 by iyahthought

d=) like what “LOLO” had said, with a simple smile, anything can be articulated.
      I’m happy coz i’m moving on…..  I DID IT! I thought i never will. Sa una lang pla kala mo nde mo kaya but eventually, unaware of it,  lil by lil m starting to forget everything that caused such pain (in the ass!) Hehe.
     Yesterday, nag-bonding kami ng  inaANAK  ko. Her name is ELAINE SHAIRA but we often call her “TAHYAH”, “TAHYAHCON”  minsan “EP-EP”. dont ask why. it’s a funny thing.  d:)  i dont know why she’s sobra kung majahe sakin even ung mga kafatir nyah evah! ull never gonna hear her calling me “ninang” but “hoy” or kulbitin lang ako to catch my atencionez. sumtimes, i mean more often than not, my bro will joke “kiss muna k Iyah” then i’l look at ZANDER (tahyah’s lil bro) he’ll just smile at me then he’ll gonna look down, minsan kakaripas ng takbo!  Kapag may kasalanan un, either nakabasag ng baso or pinakialaman ang gamit ko, wen i got home, ROSETTE (my sistah) will say “iyah c zander.” ill respond ” ay ano?” while staring at him. cguradong cgurado! Palahaw na nia kasunod nun! heheheheh cia kc ang pinaka bata kong pinsan kaya cia nmn ngaun ang sobra kung paiyakin naming magkakafatirrr.  ung tipong kung cno ang latest, cia HUMANDA ka na. heheheheh
     hay! ganyan tlaga lyf. nde mo namamalayan, ur getting older and older sumtyms bigger and bigger. dati ung inaanak ko laging paiyakin samin. ngaung may kasunod na cia, nde na.
     Sa aming magpipinsan(mudra’s syd), ala pa ikinakasal. marami na malapit mawala sa calendaryo ang edad! Buti nlang ung pinakamatanda sa bae, nakaisip ng makipag-isang puso. it wud be on September! Lahat ng baeng kafatir and pinsan, BRIDESMAID! mas excited pa nga kami kesa sa kanya! ehhehehe kc nmn daw makakapagsunod-sunod ng mag-asawa. kumbaga, cia ung pinaka GREEN COLOR sa trapik layts. ang GO SIGNAL.
      sa ngaun, if ur gonna ask me if i wanna get married na, my answer wud be N-O. as in no. not now. not tommorrow. not the other day. not the other month. not the other year.  perhapz, after 4 more years pa.  d:)  un e kung meron akong jowa or atoys or bf or fafa sa mga panahong yaon. hehehehehhe d:) saya noh!

behind OT ek ek

June 3rd, 2005 by iyahthought

on my way goin to Lipa, nakasuno ako ng mag-iina. they are 4 ( 1 mudra, 2 gurlash and 1 lad). all wearing a necklace with a pendant, I mean PENDANT kc malaki, u wud have thought it’s a medal. parang ganun n nga. ewan! bsta ganun! ung pendant may picx ng weighing chuba, ung sa court…. nasa dulo ng dila ko but i cant still recall kung anu tawag dun! so un nga, when they’re about to get off, i noticed their mudra is making abot the driver a yellow box. (laman cguro nun ung medalyon) it served as their payment for the not-so wonderful ride. wawa nmn cla. they have no money. perhaps they have but just enough for their food. this one lil gurl stares at me and i have no idea what’s playin’ at the back of her mind. the other 1 is so quiet just nakasandal sa nanay nya.

i have no idea where they are goin’. may dala clang 5 monoblk chairs. the gurls are in white dress. i have no guts to ask them. jahe ang lola nyo! hehehehe. i have so many questions in mind. anu kaya religion nila? asan kaya erpat nung mga chikiting? what are they goin to be when this kids grew up? hay! questions.. endlesss questions.

mabalik tau sa topic ko……..

OT, overtime. on this very day, nag-OT ako. kakagutom! kakapagod! kakapanis ng saliva! kakabagot! kaka kc ALANG BAYAD KAFATIR! :/ my only consolasyones is mkkpginternet aq not in a hurry! i cud take my time. but my time seems short and so as my wawartz! mia plang gutom na ulit ang abang lingkod nyo kahit ang nilamon ko ay bigtime lunch chubah! feeling ko all eyes are on me coz m carrying a stranger’s baby! joke! i mean, im carrying a styro so big for a “lil” gurlash like me. i ate chicken strips ( 2 pieces), 1 rice, veg., palabok and salad. with medium iced tea. i saw a man staring at me perhapz curious why m so matakaw yet m so thin. bah! WHO CARES! paki nila! i pay my own bills man!

OT- OverTakaw

 i should have changed my topic