personality

June 19th, 2005 by iyahthought

“It is not u underneath but wut u do that defines u” a line from d mouth of rachel in BATMAN BEGINS.

i was hurt. i didnt open it up to the person hu caused such. i js pause and think and reminisce. i asked myself  “does that really defines my personality?” “am i really like what she tot of me?” she really dont knw me that well. u cant blame me nor she cant if i am not sharing with her those stuffs that cud make me happy, things that defines my true personality. i havent cried in front of her. she’ll only gonna laugh at me and wud definitely say “Patay na Patay ka nmn”, “Naniwala ka nmn?”. hah! if only she knw what’s me underneath.

it all started while we are about to finish eating “LOMI”. she said that she cant create blog coz she dont want others to read stuffs that she’ll gonna write on it. i asked her ” have u read my diary?” then she said,”why wud i?, all that’s written on it wud be blah blah blah…i saw blah blah” “that’s ur personality!” i keep quiet afterwards. that’s not me for pete’s sake! nde ako ganun kababaw! sorry to those people who wrote that way. it’s ur minds desire to do so.

neweis, i cant deny the fact that most of what’s written on it are things that had made me smile, laugh, cry…..thoughts to remember, memories to cherish and to share. things that are nonsense to other perhaps. things that i can look and read back at jz in case that i failed to remember them. it scares me if someday i wont be remembering all that had happend to me. wag klang sana malimutan kung san ko tinago ung aking diary.

hay! PERSONALITY. a simple word with different meanings

pochie

June 6th, 2005 by iyahthought

i jz received my march issue of reader’s digest. E ANONG PETSA NAH?! HA?! neweis, i’ve read an article about dogs that says they also need care and attention, not only fud and watah. bigla ko tuloy naisip ung dog ko na c POCHIE. ATE gave her to me lst year. cnt remember the exct month and day. basta last year lng un. she’s so cute and u wud tot na nakipag pot-sessionez lagi kc nmn laging hyper! lalo na kapag nakalaya cia sa lubid na nananakal ng sobra. (joke) nde nmn mashado tight. when she was small, i said thati will buy dog fud for her tas hanggang sa lumaki na cia, ni label ng kung anong dog fud nde ko nadala sa aming kabahayan. i always forgot about it. sowe!

dumating ung time na naging matamlay c pochie. ayaw kumain ng kahit ano. i tot she jz want water but yaw ding tumoma. i dunno what to do. ala akong kakilalang vet that time. (ewan ko ba nmn na kung kelan ala ung aso ko, saka lang ako nakameet ng vetmed! na ewan ko kung asang lupalop n ng mundo cia naruun!) tas minsan, inginungudngud nia ung nguso nia sa lupa. tas eto na ang sumunod na pangyayaring nakapagpabago sa aking masalimuot na buhay…. (joke) waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuh! i woke up one morning and i heard mudra talkin’ to my bro….. “dalhin mo nlang sa silangan (east) dun mo nlng ibaon.” what a very bad news that early! i asked mudra “alin”…. but i already have a clue na c POCHIE ung tinutukoy. waaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bigla tuloy nagflashback sakin ung time na maliit pa c pochie. bigla cia namayat kc nakakain ng tinik ng hinayupak na isdang un! minsang mapadaan ako sa church, ipinagtirik ko tlaga cia ng candle para gumaling cia. and after a few days, m so damn happy kc naging addict na ulit… hyper to the max na ulit c pochie.

mabalik tau sa article, on what it says. CARE AND ATTENTION. who’s to blame for my dog’s death? no one ever spank her or kick her (baka bumaho). cguro nga, kulang sa atencion kc nmn paminsan minsan ko lang cia malambing….. kapag bagong paligo lang. e twice a month lang yata naliliguan un eh. unlike before na malimit. ng lumaki na cia (at nagka-isip heeheeh) nde na cia nawiwiling lumigo. she’ll gonna bite u if u pour water on her head.

hay! i just hope may magmagandang loob na magbigay ng dog sakin. il accept it wholeheartedly and open arms wide. heehehheeh

POTCHIE

“OH how i miss her!”

not getting any younger

June 6th, 2005 by iyahthought

d=) like what “LOLO” had said, with a simple smile, anything can be articulated.
      I’m happy coz i’m moving on…..  I DID IT! I thought i never will. Sa una lang pla kala mo nde mo kaya but eventually, unaware of it,  lil by lil m starting to forget everything that caused such pain (in the ass!) Hehe.
     Yesterday, nag-bonding kami ng  inaANAK  ko. Her name is ELAINE SHAIRA but we often call her “TAHYAH”, “TAHYAHCON”  minsan “EP-EP”. dont ask why. it’s a funny thing.  d:)  i dont know why she’s sobra kung majahe sakin even ung mga kafatir nyah evah! ull never gonna hear her calling me “ninang” but “hoy” or kulbitin lang ako to catch my atencionez. sumtimes, i mean more often than not, my bro will joke “kiss muna k Iyah” then i’l look at ZANDER (tahyah’s lil bro) he’ll just smile at me then he’ll gonna look down, minsan kakaripas ng takbo!  Kapag may kasalanan un, either nakabasag ng baso or pinakialaman ang gamit ko, wen i got home, ROSETTE (my sistah) will say “iyah c zander.” ill respond ” ay ano?” while staring at him. cguradong cgurado! Palahaw na nia kasunod nun! heheheheh cia kc ang pinaka bata kong pinsan kaya cia nmn ngaun ang sobra kung paiyakin naming magkakafatirrr.  ung tipong kung cno ang latest, cia HUMANDA ka na. heheheheh
     hay! ganyan tlaga lyf. nde mo namamalayan, ur getting older and older sumtyms bigger and bigger. dati ung inaanak ko laging paiyakin samin. ngaung may kasunod na cia, nde na.
     Sa aming magpipinsan(mudra’s syd), ala pa ikinakasal. marami na malapit mawala sa calendaryo ang edad! Buti nlang ung pinakamatanda sa bae, nakaisip ng makipag-isang puso. it wud be on September! Lahat ng baeng kafatir and pinsan, BRIDESMAID! mas excited pa nga kami kesa sa kanya! ehhehehe kc nmn daw makakapagsunod-sunod ng mag-asawa. kumbaga, cia ung pinaka GREEN COLOR sa trapik layts. ang GO SIGNAL.
      sa ngaun, if ur gonna ask me if i wanna get married na, my answer wud be N-O. as in no. not now. not tommorrow. not the other day. not the other month. not the other year.  perhapz, after 4 more years pa.  d:)  un e kung meron akong jowa or atoys or bf or fafa sa mga panahong yaon. hehehehehhe d:) saya noh!

behind OT ek ek

June 3rd, 2005 by iyahthought

on my way goin to Lipa, nakasuno ako ng mag-iina. they are 4 ( 1 mudra, 2 gurlash and 1 lad). all wearing a necklace with a pendant, I mean PENDANT kc malaki, u wud have thought it’s a medal. parang ganun n nga. ewan! bsta ganun! ung pendant may picx ng weighing chuba, ung sa court…. nasa dulo ng dila ko but i cant still recall kung anu tawag dun! so un nga, when they’re about to get off, i noticed their mudra is making abot the driver a yellow box. (laman cguro nun ung medalyon) it served as their payment for the not-so wonderful ride. wawa nmn cla. they have no money. perhaps they have but just enough for their food. this one lil gurl stares at me and i have no idea what’s playin’ at the back of her mind. the other 1 is so quiet just nakasandal sa nanay nya.

i have no idea where they are goin’. may dala clang 5 monoblk chairs. the gurls are in white dress. i have no guts to ask them. jahe ang lola nyo! hehehehe. i have so many questions in mind. anu kaya religion nila? asan kaya erpat nung mga chikiting? what are they goin to be when this kids grew up? hay! questions.. endlesss questions.

mabalik tau sa topic ko……..

OT, overtime. on this very day, nag-OT ako. kakagutom! kakapagod! kakapanis ng saliva! kakabagot! kaka kc ALANG BAYAD KAFATIR! :/ my only consolasyones is mkkpginternet aq not in a hurry! i cud take my time. but my time seems short and so as my wawartz! mia plang gutom na ulit ang abang lingkod nyo kahit ang nilamon ko ay bigtime lunch chubah! feeling ko all eyes are on me coz m carrying a stranger’s baby! joke! i mean, im carrying a styro so big for a “lil” gurlash like me. i ate chicken strips ( 2 pieces), 1 rice, veg., palabok and salad. with medium iced tea. i saw a man staring at me perhapz curious why m so matakaw yet m so thin. bah! WHO CARES! paki nila! i pay my own bills man!

OT- OverTakaw

 i should have changed my topic